Monday, August 2, 2021

WEEK 98 XINZHU: That's all Folks.... (Is he legally allowed to say that?)

Is this the real life?

Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landside,
No escape from reality

These lyrics are about how I feel right now... As I'm sitting here trying to type this, I really don't know what to type. 6 days from now I will be on a plane... Ending the greatest adventure of my life. The mission experience has been incredible and it's just amazing. And I don't really know why it has to end. 

Well, I know exactly why it has to end. But I feel like it has come too soon. The whole first part of my mission I felt that 2 years was incredibly long, and to be honest, I didn't actually believe it would end. Yes that sounds stupid, but once you start on the mission you really feel like you will be there forever. Even now I don't feel like it can end. And that has been the struggle with this whole week. My brain telling me that I'm leaving. But my spirit not wanting it to end and my soul not believing that it actually will. 

And yet here I am. 

If you thought going on a mission was hard, you should try going home from one. It is excruciating. 

I've pondered a lot about why it has been so hard this week. And it is because of one thing, and one thing only...

I love it. 

I genuinely love the mission and my time here with my whole being. Nothing has been better in my life than this. I feel like I can use Elder Hollands words when I say that there could be no one more changed by their mission experience than me. I am new. I am more like Christ. He has spiritually begotten me in these past two years. And I will never be the same. 

Because I will never stop changing. The mission has made me dedicated to a cause so much bigger than myself. The cause of Christians. The cause of God himself. 

And it's ending... 

It's basically over... 

The next time you hear from me will be my homecoming talk (if you come (which you should (yes you reading this right now, I'm talking to you (yes even if you feel like you don't know me (yes even if you live far away (there is a Zoom link (yes this is a lot of parentheses)))))))

I finally understand what the first presidency meant when they said "The Lord will reward and richly bless you as you humbly and prayerfully serve Him. More happiness awaits you than you have ever experienced as you labor among His children" 

I remember reading this at the beginning of my mission and hating it. Mostly because I thought it was a lie because I wasn't happy. But as I gave away myself. As I forgot myself and went to work. I have found happiness. And that is because I have found Christ. And I have done everything in my power to help others find him too. 

And guys... I wasn't perfect!!!! I was far from it. Maybe one of the least perfect missionaries there has ever been. But that is okay! That is no problem. God isn't expecting us to be perfect. What he does expect us to do is be humble and prayerful. And what does that mean? Well, let's look to the scriptures! 2 Nephi 32:9

"But behold, I say unto you that ye must pray always, and not faint; that ye must not perform any thing unto the Lord save in the first place ye shall pray unto the Father in the name of Christ. That he will consecrate thy performance unto thee, that the performance may be for the welfare of thy soul"

If we were perfect, God would be unable to show his power in consecrating our efforts. I believe that God has consecrated my mission to the welfare of my soul and the welfare of the souls of others. People I don't even know, but because of the grace of God, I have been able to help. 

Wow. Guys. Well. Heres the last week.... 

Monday. Went to the mall. Played some Chinese chess with my culture trainee. I kicked his trash. He's new so it's okay. 

Then I got to Testify of Christ. And I felt the spirt. It's like it's true or something.... Man I've come so much closer to him... How many times have I said that now? 

Dang, this is gonna be a rough email for everyone to read. Super sappy and cryie and spirity. Welp. Oh well. 

Tuesday we woke up at 6 to catch a train to my last zone conference. Wow. Crazy. I was doing the conducting which was pretty fun. I'd never conducted a meeting before so that was a fun experience. Then I got to give my dying testimony (hopefully President Peterson doesn't read this part, he doesn't like us calling it that!) 

Then we tried to catch a bus that didn't ever come because it doesn't exist I guess? That was rough hahaha. A couple of good lessons followed. 

Wednesday was fun. I've been getting my companions to do Sally up with me throughout the day. It is a lot of funnnn. Helped a member move houses. 

Oh yah! We dropped to level 2 which means we can do stuff with members!!! Guys!!! I got to see members face to face this week! That is a true miracle. 

Then we played some ping pong cause Asia. 

Thursday I didn't write my entire journal so that is awkward. But I went on my last exchange! Wah! Crazy. It just happened to be with the first elder that I went on exchanges with 3 months ago when I started zone leader. So that was cool. 

So we took the hour long train ride down to their area. Picked up the elder I was going on exchanges with. Turned around to take the hour train back. 

We were almost to our station when we got a call from the other elders telling us that THEY still had the keys... 

So we turned around. Took an hour train ride back. Just to grab the keys, and take the hour train ride home. 

Let's just say, that was a lot of trains! 

Friday was my last weekly planning session. Then we went to a place to get drinks on our way to the police station (don't ask) and we asked for drinks without tea. 

So of course they gave us drinks with tea. 

I've probably broken the word of wisdom more on my mission than off. 

Not probably. Hahaha, I never had tea until I was a missionary..... Probably shouldn't say that out loud. Maybe I should delete this line... Well? 

I guess I didn't delete it in the end. Oh well. Don't blame me for my circumstances of my situation. 

Then 3 of our lessons canceled on us. Let those pigeons fly*

Saturday brought early morning Frisbee with the squad. Then we met with Sean. And guys the lesson was incredible! Easily one of the smoothest in my mission. And that is because we had planned, prepared, and were worthy, so that when we started teaching we had the spirit. 

And he set a baptismal date. How incredible is that???? 

Then we ate lunch with a member (YEEEEE) and then helped another other member move. 

Then we went to bishops house for dinner and there was a lot of people there because it was also his son's farewell party because he is leaving on his mission. It was fun to talk with him. A young man about to embark on this 2 year adventure, and one on the brink of the end. He's gonna Do amazing! 

Then we got transfer calls!!!! And I'm moving home! Who woulda thunk! 

Then Sunday was good. I prayed more during my fast like President recommended, and I felt good about it. I recommend it too! 

We had good studies and some good lessons. We were pretty busy honestly. A couple different meetings, and then a dinner appointment! In person! It felt so great to see people again. Then we came home and had 2 different coordination meetings because we cover two wards now and it was just altogether a pretty good time. 

And that was the week. The last full week of the life of Elder Baird.... 

I feel like if I keep typing I'l just continue to talk about how sad I am. The week has been pretty hard mentally. But that is okay. So I'm just going to end it here. 

I love you all! Please come to my homecoming so I can see you guys in person! 

I believe in Christ. He is my King. My Savior. And my friend. It is because of Him that I left, and it is because of Him that I'm still here. It is because of Him that I want to live the rest of my life following Him. He is the rock of my testimony, and every day he become more and more the rock of my life. He is the Christ. He is Jesus of Nazareth. Born in a stable. Jesus the Jew. Killed on a cross. Jesus the Messiah. Resurrected in Glory. Jesus the Christ, sitting on the right hand of God. 

Go and follow Him. For two years I have pointed others to Him. And I hope I have been able to point you, yes you reading this email, to Him. That is my purpose as a missionary, and the purpose of my life. 

Love you, 

Elder Baird

Something about socks

This week is a quote from my amazing mother. 

"it will be a week of many lasts...it's the only way to open the window to many firsts" 

She was right when she sent this to me. And I think this is how I want to live my life. A last is just the beginning of a new first. Let's live life like that. 

The Zoom link for my homecoming 


Pictures

Glasses that I could never wear ever

We cute

Sean gave us cake! 

Krispe Kream

Members

Squad

He's out

Zone conference

Family gathering at bishops

Family gathering at bishops

The best plan of salvation picture ever

Members

Lesson

Lesson


Monday, July 26, 2021

WEEK 97 XINZHU: A week of tempests and whirlwinds and earthquakes in diverse places........ Kinda

So there were earthquakes this week! 

Well... 

Super small ones

So there was a typhoon this week!!!!

Kinda...

I was so hoping that this was the day! I would finally be able to experience a typhoon. Since I've gotten on island there has not been one that hit Taiwan. 

Sister Peterson is of course to blame for this, her prayers moved all of the typhoons. Some got close last year, but her prayers always pushed them away. 

So I was hoping that after she left (😭) this one would hit us, but at the very last moment it swerved out of the way and we just got a little rain. 

I guess her prayers are still with us! What a great blessing (if not a disappointment to all of my dreams of experiencing a typhoon)

Anyways, pretty gravy week if I do say so myself. 

So P-day went down with me winning a chess game and going on a hike. We also tried to order McDonald's online. It didn't work. So Elder Tan's mom came in clutch and ordered it for us. I'd already eaten so it was whatever, but also, McDonald's tastes worse here than it does in America if that is even possible. So wow. 

Tried to get super spiritual with a less active member, he didn't go for it. Next time tho, I'm sure! 

Tuesday brought with it a load of surprises, and a big old new elder. 

Enter, Elder Blackhurst! So we got thrown into a trio this week which was pretty unexpected. We now have got a new elder, and I feel like I'm finally a father! Kind of! He's technically on his second transfer here in Taiwan, so by that logic I am in fact, his trainer. 

However, I am just a culture trainer, Elder Blackhurst served in Utah for 11 months before finally making it to Taiwan. 

But, in the little way that it can count, I was able to train on my mission! How cool is that? 

Well, after we got our new companion, we started trio life, this is my third trio, so I'm pretty used to it by now, but it is rather hard. It's okay though! We went and gave black beans to a family (don't ask why) And then we had district council. 

Ate some good Thai food and finished off the night with a couple of lessons, and that was about it! 

Wednesday brought with it a lot of pull-ups. I don't even know why.... It just did. Then I got some dope revelations in personal study reading in Ether 12. I might even share it in my something about socks today, I'm still thinking about it... Hopefully I will have figured it out by the time I get there. 

We then met with a catholic guy who was totally chill with our message and all about learning more! The truth is the truth ladies and gents, and that's the truth! 

No one came to our English group that night which was pretty sad. But we did a puppet show which was pretty fun, so it is okay. 

Thursday was exchange day! And interviews! It was great to see President Yang again, and I'm so grateful for his service there, sad that I will only know him for such a short period of time, but that is how it goes! 

After our interviews I went with Elder Miller and Elder Blackhurst to Elder Miller's area. We had a good time, and it was 3 Americans all in a trio together. It was the most English that I have spoken in a loooong time. 

We didn't have bikes so we had to take a taxi and he totally cheated us money, but it is okay because I have Christlike love, even for the sinner. (which is good, cause Christ has love for me, a sinner) 

That night we talked a looooot. It was pretty fun. 

But honestly... It was soooo much English. I wonder what going home is gonna be like QQ

Well, I slept on the floor and then it was Friday. 

This was the day that years of voice acting for work, and countless hours spent reading Harry Potter paid off. I never knew that my work would help my mission, but it did. 

That morning, we were called upon to help a woman's children with their homework. Their homework was to read the Harry porter script. So, we spent about 20 minutes playing the Harry Potter script and it was soooo much fun! It was two little 7-year-olds with great English and one of them did a KILLER Aunt Petunia. Like dang girl. 

So that was probably one of the highlights of my mission. Voice acting the Harry Potter script. Pretttttty nice! 

Then did the planning of the week. Good times. 

Then we found of that next week we would leave level 3 of quarantine! Which means next week I might be able to meet some members before they ship me out!!! I was pretty hyped about that not gonna lie.

I had made some steamed vegetables that night, and so we just sat around our table and contacted people as the three of us ate vegetables out of a pot and commented on how good they were. 

I felt like an adult. Only old people comment on how good steamed vegetables are as they eat them with their friends... It was odd. 

Then I taught my culture baby, Elder Blackhurst how to play Chinese chess. It was pretty fun. I won. Obviously ;) 

Saturday we were doing a mini MTC thing where we had lessons with some youth. And I got to role play as one of our friends which was pretty fun. Good memories right there. 

One of the members we have been working with for months finally was able to meet with the bishop which was a huge miracle. I love it when people progress. It makes me soooooo happy! 

I guess it probably makes God soooooo happy when I progress too then. 

And when you progress too.

I guess we should all keep progressing then! Yay! 

Also, I made Elder Blackhurst talk to a guy on his motorcycle, and it was his first time! I felt like such a great person. I remember when my trainer pushed me to talk to someone for the first time. So scary. But he crushed it. 

Honestly that was about it. But I did buy a super cool food panda jacket. I'm so 帥

Sunday we woke up and had a meeting at 7:00 AM

I don't know who's idea it is to have a meeting at 7:00 AM, but they should be fired. Like dang. Early bird gets the worm I guess.... To be honest though, I feel like I'm more of the worm in this situation than I am the bird. Oh well. 

After that we had church. I've been here almost two years, and I still don't understand all of church. Oh well. A lot more than the beginning, ha. 

Then we had some studies and some more meetings. Some food. I made some super yummy Kung Pao Chicken 東西. Pretty much a pro. 

After wards we had a couple other lessons, and some other meetings. I love teaching soooo much! It is definitely my favorite part of being a missionary. Well, mostly just bearing testimony. Because I love feeling the spirit and helping others feel it as well! 

Anyways, that is pretty much all for this week. Your opportunities to email Elder Baird are running pretty low. The end is near. So make sure to repent and send me an email!!!! Hahaha, love you all! I will be seeing you all before you know it! 

Love, 

Elder Baird

Something about Socks

Okay, luckily I decided on what I wanted to share about. It took me a while cause I've got three really cool things that I wanted to share, but... Due to the fact that hardly anyone reads this anyway, and the fact that if I put 3 no one would. 

So I have chosen to share my thoughts on Ether,..,.... 

12.....

Twenty............six.

Hahaha, you thought it would be 27, nope! 

26 And when I had said this, the Lord spake unto me, saying: Fools mock, but they shall mourn; and my grace is sufficient for the meek, that they shall take no advantage of your weakness;

AWESOME, the verse that everyone seems to skip over as they rush to get to verse 27. Here is my note from it. 

--

No advantage of your weakness. What does this mean? I'm thinking about this and at first I was like, well no duh, Moroni is gonna be dead by the time the gentiles read this. So... No problem right? 

Then I started thinking a little more about this and the thing that Moroni is scared of here is people not being converted. So taking advantage of his weakness could mean Moroni is worried that because of his weakness people won't believe. 

But God says that if they are humble they will learn, and that if Moroni is humble then this won't happen. All because of his grace. Okay we've got that. 

Now how does this apply to us. Fools mock. Sometimes we get mocked because of our beliefs. But if we are humble, God's grace is sufficient that their mocking won't take advantage over us. As in if we stay with Christ their mocking will not inhibit us from Eternal Glory. This is our end goal. We are weak, and we may be mocked. But this cannot give them power over us IF we are meek. If we stay with God. 

The mocking hand can have incredible sway over people. Look at the tree of life. Fools mocked, some fell away. But the truly meek and humble could not be taken advantage of. The Holy Ghost just helped me make this connection. I've never thought about it like this before! Yah!!!! Anyway, yah I think that is what this means. We cannot lose eternity because of someone's mocking unless we turn to it and away from the Lord. 

So when we are getting mocked we can remember this scripture. And know that if we keep an eternal perspective, these things cannot take advantage over us. Doesn't mean it's gonna be easy, in fact it may even be harder. But our eternal destiny will remain secure! 

Oh, and the fools will mourn when their building comes a tumblin' down. 

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So the next time you're being mocked just remember this. Be humble, and don't let them take advantage of you, because through the grace of Christ, and faith on his name, you can prevail over them all! 

Oh by the way, for those of you who don't want to come see me in person for my homecoming, there will be a Zoom link. So don't you worry, you can still see my beautiful face :))))))) 

Pictures!!!! 

District on the hike

I got wrekt by the mosquito 

I got wrekt by the mosquito 

My baby out like a light

The elders

My comp evolved?

The squad outside

The two 7 year olds

3 Americans in an apartment for a night is terrifying....

3 Americans in an apartment for a night is terrifying....

Us and Jerry

Looking cute

Lesson


Monday, July 19, 2021

WEEK 96 XINZHU: The week where I burned my face... The question is... How?

Hello! Ding dong! 

My name is Elder Baird 
(ding dong) 
And I would like to share with you The most amazing book.

Hello! (hello) 

My name is Elder Tan.
It's a book about America
A long, long time ago.

It has So many awesome parts You simply won't believe How much this book can change your life!
(ding dong)

If you get it you win.

This has been my week. Testifying of my favorite book, a book that has so many awesome parts and can change your life.

But like, I've learned just how important this is to me. Not just this work, but this message. I love the work. But this message is sooo much more than just the work. But at the same time the message is the work. Pretty trick huh?? 

SUBJECT LINE

So you may be asking yourself, how did Elder Baird burn his face? Isn't he stuck in side? Locked away from all the sun? Suffering from vitamin D deficiency? Slowly losing his islander (and missionary white shirt) tan? How could he burn his face? 

I feel asleep with my head sticking out of the window.

Just kidding hahaha

So I went to my favorite place (the Taiwan dermatologist) and they gave me some new medicine. Stronger medicine they said would do the trick. Stronger medicine to fix my face they said. 

Well, turns out that when I put said medicine on my face with the other medicine they get me (they told me to) my face caught on fire (no flames were used in the production of this email) 

So yah, my face is read now and I'm peeling... Does acne medication burn turn into tan? Cause I guess that would be nice...! 

Won't help my vitamin D deficiency though... Oh well. I'll go sleep on the roof. 

Wow guys it has been a great week and let us get into itttttt! Monday we went up to the mountains to walk around. Felt great to get outside (this was before my burnt face so pretty nice) 

I caught a butterfly! See video below 👇👇

Yah that was pretty much it. 

Tuesday I read Alma 5:28-31 and that was a slap in the face. All of my 3 biggest sins and weaknesses in as many verses telling me I couldn't go to the celestial kingdom. 

Was I sad? 

Nope. Maybe the slap was a little stingy, but it actually brought me soooo much hope! Because the whole chapter is about how we can change through the atonement, and I realized that I myself cannot be saved, but through Christ I can do all things that strengthen me! And I can get over my weaknesses and me made strong, even unto the sitting down with my father in heaven. Go take a read okay? 

Read the book of James. Good stuffs. 

One of the STLs shove mango pie in my face during district council. That was fun. Yummy too! 

Then I got to go on exchanges and it was pretty fun. Got to meet a new elder that I hadn't met before. Elder Zheng is so great. Fun times. Met with a member who said he would cut my hair for free so that is pretty nifty. 

Then we biked to their house, it was like a 30 minute plus bike ride which was pretty great. I love biking. But it was a little long. Makes me wonder how I used to do hour plus races... Pretty great. 

Also I talked to a guy on the street and he set up. He didn't show up the next day, but it's the thought that counts right? 

On Wednesday I didn't write my journal. But I know that we finished exchanges and had English Group... Honestly I can't remember. But I'm sure it was a super awesome day! 

Thursday we threw away a lot of trash. Studied about the atonement and read all of the different new testament gospel records of the atonement. It was actually pretty epic and I was a huge fan. Definitely go and do it. You really start to realize the pain that was experienced, then you add on accounts in the book of Mormon, and the Doctrine and Covenants and wow. I'm so grateful for the atonement. 

Then I went on exchanges with my Elder Elder Lal from the MTC. The one and only Fijian in Taiwan (probably) 

We had a great time, and honestly we had some of the funniest lessons of my whole life. From meeting with a guy who said he wouldn't talk to me because I was too tall, to singing songs with members, to one of our friends trying to sell us Dottera products and saying he could fix my face (this was after burn so I was quite tempted mind you, but still you shouldn't take up all the time with the missionaries doing your sales approach, the missionaries are trying to do their sales approach. You can't out-sales eternal life mind you.) 

I just used mind you twice. I don't think I've used that in two years.... And to be honest I'm not sure if I used it right... Oh well! 

Then we went to the roof and looked at the city lights at night. Pretty chill. 

Got up early the next day to play Frisbee with the bois. 

Then we missed our train by literally 5 seconds. 5 seconds people???? I could have saved those 5 seconds in soooo many places and we still missed the train. But that is okay. No use in crying over missed trains. There will always be another one. 

Made fried rice. 

Contact. Lessons. Met with a guy who actually had questions and seemed interested??? That would be nice!!! Met with another guy we are working on helping to go on a mission! 

Saturday we had great lessons. Can't really share about all of them but they were great. Some good friends progressing. 

Good member lessons. Yah pretty much it

I really just want to get to the something about socks! 

Sunday was good. We had 4 friends come to church which was awesome, and we set a baptismal date with one of our other friends and so that was also great. 

I spent a lot of time studying and it just makes me happy. Also got to have a great experience with personal Repentance, and Boi am I grateful for that! 

Are we done yet??? 

Fine sure. 

Love you all so much! You're running out of time to send me an email :)))))) 

Love, 

Elder Baird

Something about Socks... Finally!!!!!! 

Okay, so I listened to a talk the other day (link in the description) 

(where is the description part of the email??) 

Let me quote it, you all know it. Elder Hollands 

“An High Priest of Good Things to Come”


Sooooo

"Thirty years ago last month, a little family set out to cross the United States to attend graduate school... they drove exactly 34 miles up the highway, at which point their beleaguered car erupted.
   Pulling off the freeway onto a frontage road, the young father surveyed the steam, matched it with his own, then left his trusting wife and two innocent children—the youngest just three months old—to wait in the car while he walked the three miles or so to the southern Utah metropolis of Kanarraville... 
   After more than two hours of checking and rechecking, no immediate problem could be detected, so once again the journey was begun. In exactly the same amount of elapsed time at exactly the same location on that highway with exactly the same pyrotechnics from under the hood, the car exploded again. It could not have been 15 feet from the earlier collapse, probably not 5 feet from it!... 
   Now feeling more foolish than angry, the chagrined young father once more left his trusting loved ones and started the long walk for help once again. This time the man providing the water said, “Either you or that fellow who looks just like you ought to get a new radiator for that car.”... 
   “How far have you come?” he said. “Thirty-four miles,” I answered. “How much farther do you have to go?” “Twenty-six hundred miles,” I said. “Well, you might make that trip, and your wife and those two little kiddies might make that trip, but none of you are going to make it in that car.” He proved to be prophetic on all counts.
   Just two weeks ago this weekend, I drove by that exact spot where the freeway turnoff leads to a frontage road, just three miles or so west of Kanarraville, Utah. 
   Yet in my mind’s eye, for just an instant, I thought perhaps I saw on that side road an old car with a devoted young wife and two little children making the best of a bad situation there. Just ahead of them I imagined that I saw a young fellow walking toward Kanarraville, with plenty of distance still ahead of him. His shoulders seemed to be slumping a little, the weight of a young father’s fear evident in his pace. In the scriptural phrase his hands did seem to “hang down.” In that imaginary instant, I couldn’t help calling out to him: “Don’t give up, boy. Don’t you quit. You keep walking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead—a lot of it—30 years of it now, and still counting. You keep your chin up. It will be all right in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come.” "

Sorry it's a long quote, but I read this the other day and boy did it hit me. 

I recently started reading my journal from the beginning of my mission. I felt that now is as good as anytime to go and look back on those experiences of the past. I've been amazed going back and looking at it, seeing what I had went through and some of my challenges and fears and depressions and happiness and successes. It's been eye opening. 

But the one thing that has amazed me the most is the change. 

As I've gone back and read the words of Spencer past, I can still feel the fear and sorrow that were connected with them. Lookin forward on two years of which, at the time, was misery. Wondering if I would ever find the promised happiness in the work. Wondering if it would change me. Wondering if it would ever actually become the "best two years" 

And those feelings were real. The anxiety is in the words I wrote. 

But as I look back on those times and read those words, I kind of feel like Elder Holland. Looking back at myself from under two years ago, seeing where I am now and just wanting to tell my past self, "Just keep going! You have so much happiness and joy ahead of you. You just don't know it. And it will be everything that you have wanted it to be and more. You will have struggles but you will come out so much better. And you'll be so much prepared for the future."

I can't help but just imagine me telling my past self that. 

And I'm so grateful to my past self for sticking it through. 

But how often do we need to remember this? That there is good to come. Maybe we should just imagine it, right now, our future self thanking us for enduring right now. For making it through the hard time. Us from the future telling current us to keep going. Because if we do, there will come a day where you look back and say those things to your past self. 

So why not get that encouragement now? 

I'm going to end with Elder Hollands testimony because he says it soooo much better than me! 

"I testify that God lives, that He is our Eternal Father, that He loves each of us with a love divine. I testify that Jesus Christ is His Only Begotten Son in the flesh and, having triumphed in this world, is an heir of eternity, a joint-heir with God, and now stands on the right hand of His Father. I testify that this is Their true Church and that They sustain us in our hour of need—and always will, even if we cannot recognize that intervention. Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don’t come until heaven; but for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come. Of that I personally attest. I thank my Father in Heaven for His goodness past, present, and future, and I do so in the name of His Beloved Son and most generous high priest, even the Lord Jesus Christ, amen"

Pictures!!!